JEEP. it’s not a vehicle or something running around the streets. it’s a new subject offered at our school, CU. i was shock to know we have this subject. it was not in the prospectus or even announced to the college. we thought it was a Guidance and Counseling class and i was just in awe by the time we step into the classroom. i thought we’re lost or we just entered into a wrong classroom. but the reality, it was really a new subject. the supposedly GC class was removed and JEEP was replaced. Ms. Sigrid Talampas ( i hope i spell it correctly!) explained all the changing things and the subject matter. JEEP stands for Job Enhancement (forget the othr E) Program. it would be something like a preparation for IELTS. it’s kinda interesting plus the instructor itself, i get amazed everytime i see her. she’s so different. i mean, she got a lot of the “ooohhhhhh” factor. i like her that’s why i’m imitating her. hahaha. next monday we will be having our review for the pr-test and by wednesday would be the exam. we’re aiming for 1.2 and the standard college student only gets 0.5 so hey! i don’t want to get that grade. i’m aiming for a point higher. 1.3 hahaha. anyway, i’m gonna update abot you about this new school program.

Blue cloth on the arm and white strap around the neck and arms cemented. CAST. That’s what you call it. During my childhood years, I really wanted to have cast around my arm. Why? because for me, it’s cool to have that. Why?

• everyone will be concern about you so you will excuse from household chores
• everything you want will be given
• your popular in the school and they will be writing “God Bless”, “get well soon” ans sometimes you “you rock!” on the cemented part.

hahahah…sounds like I’m insane, right? But having cast on your arms or legs or knees is not easy. I can see that on my patients with cats arms but still… I want to have that! hahhahaha

The first time I was in DR (delivery room), I was so nervous because I don’t know what to do but I was so lucky that the nurse on duty, the midwife and my C.I. are there to help and teach us what to do. Ofcourse there are questions asked in which I acquired from the four walls of the classroom but during the onset of the true delivery, it’s really different, you forgot all of those things because of the tension and you can see the mother suffers like she was dying. Almost dying. really scary. I’m not afraid of blood actually. It was jus that it’s a DELIVERY ROOM and normally the patient inside is a woman who is suffering from a product of its love. I was the assist so I’m unsterile and I’m the one assign to get the BP of the patient before the delivery, after the baby came out and when the placenta drops off. I’m the one who will run to get some ice pack, opens the syringe and the biggest role is to comfort the mother from the pain she’s suffering. The whole time I stood beside her, holding her hands, I can also feel the agony that she’s been through and it feels like I’m the one who’s lying on the bed like screaming for help.

H E L P!!!!! and then I saw that it’s cervix widens and the nurse was putting his fingers inside. Ouch! The nurse let my other classmate put her fingers inside so that she can feel the fetal head. I was shocked and she was shaking. (I also want to do that!) but I can’t, I’m unsterile. By the way, that procedure is called I.E. (Internal Examination). So that time the mother is in total pain and the baby is crowning. The NOD said, “cge pa gang, tarunga lang ug utong kay hapit na.” so I peep in and saw black thinge’s. it was the hair of the baby and her vagina really widens. It’s AMAZING. The NOD did not even do episiotomy. So everyone was trying to help her end her anguish. The midwife “kitoy” her breast to send message to the hypothalamus and let the ptituitary release oxytocin that helps the uterus for contraction and push the baby out. When I saw the head popped out from her mother’s vagina, it was really AMAZING! And another shocking event, the NOD let my classmate rotate the baby. Can you imagine? Pulling out the baby just by holding its head and baby’s body is so fragile. But when the baby came out, I thought it was an alien because of its head but it was really AMAZING! The baby then was put on her mother’s abdomen and that was their first bonding. It’s a baby girl! Everyone was glad to see the baby and the mother was crying. Tears of joy I guess. Her baby is so cute. The bluish-white color turned into dark rose red when the baby cried. It’s a good sign and that was a score of 2. Jhong made the cord care and we were waiting for the placental separation. The NOD again asks questions and that time, we we’re able to answer. And that was it. As I was looking the mother it was like nothing to her. Like she just went to release her bowel. So AMAZING. And I asked the mother if it is her first baby and it was. And what’s more AMAZING is that she’s 20 year’s old. Glad she knows what to do and her BP was good, ‘twas normal. After that, she ate her… I think it was her breakfast. After an hour, the NOD have to repair some damage tissues because ofcourse there was laceration. So the whole time, I was really AMAZED. Amazed by how creative God was. Of how he put a 39cm cute angel inside a mother’s womb for 9 months. Of how God was able to help the mother survive in that life-threatening situation. You see? God won’t allow a situation to happen if we can’t surpass it. You see how happy the mother was seeing her cute little angel? All her sufferings was gone, all her hardships was put behind because she saw a very wonderful gift.

Due to the heavy rains and strong winds, last Monday, my ever-loyal green rusty dirty but useful umbrella had resign from it’s obligation. I did not notice that the upper part where it clings had already been damaged and so the strong wind had tortured it. I bought that the day after my birthday last 2007 with someone… hmmmmm… never mind. It served me for 1 year and 4 months and it was been hard for me to say goodbye to my lovely umbrella. I’m now in a grieving process:

D: denial. From that day of its destruction, I thought it was okay and can still be repaired.
A: anger. But when I figure it out, I saw that it was impossible to be back on its normal state and was angry because it served me for more than a year. I was mad with the blustery weather.
D: depression. So the whole day, I was so depress with its unlawful destruction of my little one. Its leaving me and and it’s hard for me to leave it junk on the side with no one to care. We’ve shared a lot of good memories. It has been with my journey wherever I go and witness all the trials I’d been through. The flaring heat of the sun and heavy raindrops.
A: acceptance. An hour or two after, I accept the fact that I should junk it out. Maybe someone can still use that thing and I hope it can really help the person who can find it.

So yesterday, I never thought it would rain and while I was on my way home from duty, I realized that I should buy a new umbrella because the weather here is not really that good. So to assure and to be sure not to get sick from this unending bad climate, I stopped by at Watson’s Department Store, located at Divisoria under McDonalds and buy a new yellow umbrella (this is also where I bought my old umbrella). And I name her pochi. She’s a new friend and I hope you can meet her soon. 

I was glad that God listen to my prayers and almost of it He answers. That’s how He loves me. But I learned a lesson just this day. BE SPECIFIC in your prayers. It was a Saturday night when we had our UNYT and I knew that Cebu will have their exchanging gifts at the Ayala Mall… uhhhhh… I was jealous so, I prayed for rain and it rained… but not in Cebu.. here in CdeO… I planned to go to church that morning but then it rained so hard so I just went back to bed and waited for the rain to stop but it hadn’t. It was already past 12 and the weather is getting worse. It was already 3 or 4pm that the rain had calm down and so we went to my 2^nd home which is the Abao’s mansiones and had some hot chocolate their. It was so cold, very soothing to jump in the bed and sleep and we just knew that some parts of the city had been flooded and friends were asking for help. I did not even think about that that will happen. Many had suffered. Floods were almost to eat up their houses, appliances were damaged, water already entered their homes, livestock were washed away, trees were carried by the floods and flood all over the city. Then we heard that Gaisano was closing because the waters already went inside the mall same with the LimKetkai. Heavy trucks from Iligan were not permitted to enter the City and many buses were stranded. It was very awful. I did not even know that that prayer causes a big tragic to other people… and I was GUILTY. The next day, I prayed that there will be no class and for rain… and it really rained and classes are cancelled. I was happy but then again I was GUILTY. Many people are still suffering of the flood and feared because there was news that there will be a high tide. Still, some areas are in flood. And I was in the heart of the city so I can’t even feel the heavy floods… just the heavy rains and strong winds… and I was GUILTY. Friends text for some help and prayers.. and I was GUILTY. Plus, a tragedy had happened somewhere in Lanao. MILF had bombed a Transco tower there so some places are suffering from darkness. (I didn’t pray for that). The whole day, I was GUILTY… so I learn a lesson and hope you also learn from my lesson… Sorry Lord.

It has been 10 years since I went to Cebu. I can still remember the first time I was there. We just went to Cebu Doctor’s Hospital for my and my father’s general check-up and then to SM City Cebu for some shopping. That was it. And now, I’m back after how many century. Hehehe… and during my 5-day stay their, I had New Found Friends (NFF) and glad to see my Long Lost Friends (LLF).

• The three stooges.. hehehe.. (Sorry for the term guys) you’re just so funny that I compared you to them. From left-kuya Bobot, Kuya Jinggoy, and Kuya Bjek. It was nice knowing the three of you. You gave me a stomachache during the last night. Hahaha.. Until now, I can still remember your unbeatable jokes. Kuya Bobot, thank you for saving my life when we played billiards. Hahaha.. Or, did I save you? hahaha… thank you so much for the laughing memories and for criticizing my hometown and dialect… hmmmm… Kuya Jinggoy, thank you for the talks. I’m sorry I can’t give you my spongebob… well, you can give me one. The one I told you. Kadtong naa sa SM, tag1299 php.. hahaha… Kuya Bjek, thank you for the new words… hahaha… laum jud kayo kag bisaya doh… once again, thank you because even sa text ninyo, you still made me laugh. I’ll try to visit you there this summer. Invited man kaha ko sa SEP ninyo? Hehehe.. iaccomodate ko hup? Hehehe.. so, naamaze mo how fast I can text? Hahaha… wa nay laing challenge ato? Hehehe.. MAKIBAKA! MAKIBABOY! Ooopppssss..
• The “eyes” girl before now a lady. MADELEINE BOONE. My dormate last SEP 2003.. well, that was years ago. Why “eyes”? because as far as I can remember, Madel was wearing glasses before and now I wonder where are those glasses? Hmmmm.. it has been years and I miss her so much… and I was so glad that after 5 long years we met again… thank you madz for sharing me your stories and for the talks.. now I

wonder who’s that Edward your talking about.. hehehe..

RD. also my brotherdorm with the same year of SEP. when I saw him during the conference I was timid because.. hmmmm… it’s a long story.. well, that was it and it was nice seeing him there and had continue in serving Him. Sayang, we don’t have enough time to talk. Hmmmm… well, see you this summer.. hopefully

Kuya Mervin.. wow.. it’s been years.. it was nice to see you there… I hope you can’t remember the past.. mura man gud ug lain.. hahaha.. by the way, he’s the Assist. Counselor of dorm 3g in which RD belongs and my brother dorm at that time… hahaha.. karemember pa ka ato? hehehe

• K’ Andru and K’ Andoi. Oie, bag-o ra man ta nagkita.. wahahaha… well, I want to thank the both of you for the warm welcome.. wahahaha.. warm ba toh? Mura mag dili… K’ Andru, thank you for the friendship… and for the swipe moments.. abi ko ug mautro toh dana sa Cebu.. hahaha… “Maam?” hahaha..

K’ Andoi.. hmmmm… thank you for carrying my luggage, PORTER? Salamat sa mga moments ug sa Cebu bracelet… hahaha… thank you for the great comradeship and for the long talks… now you know about those blogs… ayaw nag kaintriga dana… and.. I’M NOT INLOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN… okiez? But then again, thank you coz you already paid your debts when you were here.. but I was not satisfied with your performance. EVALUATION: bad tour guide but a good porter… till next time porter!!! Charon ampao!

i just had my cap last November 15… and during the practices, 

I’d never felt any excitement of having my cap and my

nameplate.. because i thought that

after this event, “this would be the beginning of the end…”

meaning, i would be very busy unlike before.. requirements

left and right, duties on morning, toxic patients and

watchers, strict C.I’s, progress notes, NCP’s, drug study,

on-call duties and a lot more.. so i should not celebrate of

having my cap instead i should grieve.. well, that was i thought before but on the very day of

our BIG DAY, that was the time that i felt nervous

and felt butterflies on my stomach… we’d

practice the processional, the songs, the

marching, and all but when it already started, i

don’t know when would i start walking, when

would i turn left,when would i sit down…i felt

awfully NERVOUS.. it was a nice feeling having

your cap, with white shoes and stockings,

nightingale’s uniform and a pin..  i just felt sad

because i want my whole family to be there… i

feel the same feeling when i graduated in highschool… it was my mom and monet who went

there and i was jealous seeing students with their whole family, some had their relatives with

them… i would be very glad and very much happy if my sisters and my pop was there…  *sniff*

after all, i still had my mom, monet and some of my friends also went there to witness the

ceremony…

thank you guys for being there on our day..

for the advices and photocopies of ncm2.. hehehe

thank you totz for being there also even

though naay outing ang church you still chose

to be there..

thank you mang kay you had been there and kabalo jud ka na important kaayo toh na day sa

ako… thank you for supporting me always and sa understanding… i will never brek your

trust.. kamo ni papang… love you so much..

*sniff* *sniff*

to jevy, frans, kim, jamy, cathy and edrolin sisters… aja aja… let’s not give up.. it’s just the beginning and i

know we will surpassevery trial that will come… naprove na nato once and let’s show them na we can also

be the CREAM OF THE CROP.. keep believing..

it’s already 4:24 am and i’m still awake… why? because….. i have a lot of requirements to meet… huhuhu… anyway, last night.. we celebrated my 18th birthday in advance…. ahahaha.. today is my birthday.. let’s sing a song….

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me

happy birthday

happy birthday

happy birthday to me…

hahaha… i was flabbergasted by my friends text messages and testimonials on my friendster account… i’m a one-year older.. yeah.. but, i’ll still be the same marmie they had known..

anyway, i can feel the cold breeze outside and the road is so foggy na so, i guess i have to treat myself for a nice goodnight sleep… i’ll post the pictures of the party soon.. gep nako pipol… hehehehe

love you all..

God bless..

gudmowning..